Over and over again, more and more for the pain .

It seems I'm on a hormone-fueled rampage today, every little thing has gotten on my nerves and I hate myself like this. I prefer the calm, clean, cold starving me.

I just finished cooking what used to be (many years ago before I became a vegan) one of my favorite things to eat; enchiladas.
It wasn't as tempting as I thought it would be, I've gotten used to cooking for my family and learning to control my compulsion to eat during or after I'm done was hard but not impossible.
My mother works and is often too busy to keep house or make dinner so that job falls on me.
So the third day of my liquid fast was as hard as it always is but I made it through with only a minor slip up; I had a bouillon cube (made into broth). Liquid yes, but still far too much sodium.


Being on my period often makes me feel ravenous and nauseated at the same time, a horrid combination.

W. if you read this, I'm doing alright I know you were worried but I'm coping. I'm just glad for your posts and support, it helps tremendously.

I had missed being back on track, long fasts used to be my favorite thing to do but for months I couldn't seem to find the control I once had. I think I have now and I'm relieved.


Intake for the day:
1/2 cup of coffee with 2 tsps sugar {32 cals.}
1 bouillon cube (broth) {32 cals.}

Total of: 64 liquid cals for the day.

I think I'll put off weighing myself until this damned period is over, I hope I can manage that. I usually weigh myself a ridiculous amount of times a day but I don't need the disappointment of water weight right now.

-H.